I FEEL HARDCORE

Sex, Drugs, and Rock and Roll

2008-10-06T19:41:00.000-07:00

I hate that my real life friends know that I blog.I used to be able to rant freely about gossip and drama and my opinions and my blog was a place where I could vent. An alternative vice to the more self destructive vices there are to hit.Not blogging or writing it out in some way, shape, or form makes me want to hit those vices.I want to be hammered. I want to get fucked up. I want something to

I Want to Dance Naked Around You

2008-09-30T16:36:00.001-07:00

The last few days have been a rollercoaster of emotion, event, party and work.I don't know exactly how to explain what happened up in Lillooet, only that it sent my mind spinning in excitement and confusion and I can't write publicly about it now - I'm having trouble writing about it in my journal as it is.Orientation at school yesterday filled me with inspiration as it was meant to, and set me

I (Heart) Naked Girls

2008-09-26T16:47:00.000-07:00

At White Spot, waiting for my dinner date, and then Mike (aka Chavez) and my fiancé to pick me up and we're heading to Lillooet. Apparently, Spanks is already messed up so either Mike or I will have to drive, but I'm leaning more towards Mike because I'm starting my weekend now with a double caesar that was made by accident and Lord knows I can't turn down a free drink.The connection here is

'What happens in this moment will determine your choices for the next one'

2008-09-25T00:36:00.000-07:00

In Waves Coffee at Main St and Broadway, slightly worried about my car outside, but more worried about my irrational fear of cops kicking in and making me act all sketchy seeing as there are 10 of them in here just chillin.Finally putting my new laptop to work, installing all the programs that didn't come with it and FINALLY using Firefox, and feeling wonderful seeing as I'm a junkie. At work

The Last of Last

2008-09-23T00:40:00.000-07:00

This past weekend was pretty rad. The whole week in total I put over 2100kms on the car - oops.Right now though I don't have time to write about it. BUT I will say this:STEPHANIE MARION!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND NEED YOU TO CALL ME!!!Adventure lies ahead no matter what.

13 days

2008-09-17T14:35:00.000-07:00

I decided at the beginning of summer (May-Longish) that this summer would be a calm-down as it led up to school so by the time it approached I'd be ready to settle into a focussed routine.HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAI should have known myself better, that I would turn it to a '

One of the Boys

2008-09-03T00:37:00.000-07:00

I like a few of Katy Perry's songs, and I like her lyrics to most of her songs, and I think she's really, really, really hot.I've even remixed 'I Kissed A Girl' for a house party we had at the end of June and I wrote my own rap to it and played it at the end of the rap performances and freestyles to bring in the techno dance part of the party.I haven't gotten to know her music too well yet, but

Bumbershoot

2008-09-02T20:56:00.000-07:00

Went to Seattle yesterday.Hopped on a Greyhound bus with two awesome 19 year olds who had never had an adventure quite like the one that only I knew we were going to have.We went on an adventure and got to know the downtown area and then headed to the festival.They were stunned at the crowd before Paramore came on... it was maybe 10,000 people. I asked, 'Do you want to go to the front row?' They

What is?

2008-08-31T14:38:00.001-07:00

While a believer in anything is possible, no matter how incredible, I also find my self to be a believer in sometimes it just isn't meant to be even though you may really want it.It leads to the most confusing feeling anyone can have: 'if I tried hard for it and wanted it more than anything and it isn't meant to happen... what is?'Most people will see it as the disappointment of disappointments,

Moments

2008-08-30T01:09:00.000-07:00

Today I went downtown trying to catch the sunset and it was one of those evenings that couldn't have been more beautiful.In Stanley Park, I had a moment walking by the lagoon, that mirrored the pink and purple clouds behind the willow trees, where I jumped at a shadow of a branch and suddenly felt completely powerless to the awesomeness of my surroundings. I thought of my parents and wondered if

Mirrorhouse

2008-08-26T20:24:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I wrote a song, and as I wrote it, I fell in love with it.Today, I hate it.As I looked over what were beautiful lyrics, I had the utmost resentment for them. Like it was unoriginal, like it wasn't my own - even though it is.It makes me really angry to be feeling as great as I have and am discovering all sorts of new found happiness. Why? Because I'm 23 and so many people around me have

All At Once

2008-08-19T20:38:00.000-07:00

Life is great, life is busy, life is scaring the shit outta me.Lots of things have been going according to plan but there are a couple of things I hadn't expected that have rattled me somewhat.Only have a few minutes on right now before Ben gets back to work, but I had the urge to post these lyrics. All At OnceBy Jack JohnsonAll at onceThe world can overwhelm meThere's almost nothin' that you

Alyson's Colour Quiz Recommendation

2008-07-07T22:27:00.000-07:00

Kira took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!"Needs to feel identified with someone or something..."Click here to read the rest of the results.

I think with my dick

2008-06-26T02:45:00.000-07:00

Is it completely evil to totally plan (and I mean, I have a set plan) on making out with two different guys in the same night at the same party and have them not find out about the other?

Regrets

2008-06-25T02:10:00.000-07:00

Today I found out my friend Israel died.I've known Izzy since we were in high school choir together and I'm not going to lie and say we were best friends, because we weren't really too close but we were friends and he was a great guy.In high school we didn't really talk a lot, in fact we didn't really start talking till a few years later when he started showing up at parties at my friend's house.

Kira = Nerd

2008-06-21T00:12:00.000-07:00

I just spent the last hour creeping on blogs I used to read all the time... mainly the ones I link plus a few more I had forgotten about.I remember living in Winnipeg and thinking I would really love to live in Vancouver or Toronto because my lots of my favourite bloggers live there and then when I get there we could all be blogger friends and drink all the time and take pictures and see who's

I'm singing Uh-Oh on a Friday night and I hope everything's going to be alright!

2008-06-20T22:33:00.000-07:00

Random adventure on June 18th to America with Kaylee.It's Friday night and all my friends are out. Some of them went bowling, some of them went clubbing, some of them left town, some have dates, and some are on adventures not sure where their nights will take them.Last Friday I was out drunk and clubbing, the Friday before I was too hungover to make it out, the Friday before that I was at a pub

That's What You Get When You Let Your Heart Win

2008-06-13T12:49:00.000-07:00

I feel like a rockstar. If I decide to, in a couple years time, I can be.In applying for school, I only half believed I might get in.MORESO, I figured that as long as I could tell myself, 'At least I tried', and then keep copping out for the rest of my life which other than in my decision to move to BC, or travel to Scotland, or when I got into National Youth Band in 2003, or interviewing KT

Her eyes were like summer of beauty and truth

2008-06-13T01:40:00.000-07:00

20 minutes ago I was in such a mood to blog.Now, not so much.

My Future Depends on My Writing

2008-06-04T18:04:00.000-07:00

I literally just walked in the door and went straight to the computer because I NEED to blog out what just happened to me.I went for my interview at my school, which is the defining point of whether or not you can be accepted into the school and I've been nervous about this forever... since September to be exact and I kept on putting it off because I was way too afraid I would fuck it up or start

Sugar and Spice AND Frogs and Snails and Puppy-dogs' tails

2008-05-28T00:12:00.000-07:00

These past couple weeks have been a turmoil of events and emotion of which none of really matter at all. And if they do, I can't pick out which ones because my mind has just been racing with commotion and excitement that it's given up trying to prioritize ANYTHING.Financial issues, employment issues, living issues, friend issues, lies and secrets issues, sexuality issues, trust issues,

Summer

2008-05-22T12:02:00.000-07:00

The long weekend.May Long Mayhem.Camping, Drinking, 4x4ing, Quading, Drinking, Hiking, Mud Wrestling, Drinking, Fighting, Stabbings, Drinking, Falling Off Cliffs, Making Out With Girls, Drinking, Dancing, Singing Around the Fire, Drinking, Roasting Hot Dogs, Hand Stomping, Drinking, Sunburns, Car Accidents, Peeing in the Bush, Drinking...Can you find the common denominator?First weekend of

Girls and Love

2008-05-07T02:48:00.000-07:00

I can be such a girl.Out here they don't really know it, I'm tough and adventurous and show a lot more manliness than a few of my guy friends, and equal out to a lot of them. I joke about drama, vagina games, and how I have a larger cock and way more balls than most of my friends.The girl in me isn't known to any except to maybe Kaylee but everybody in Winnipeg I'm pretty sure knows it.It's the

Birds

2008-05-06T12:59:00.001-07:00

Kate Nash is the most amazing thing to enter my life so far this year, and I've had an amazing year so far so that's saying a lot. These are the cutest lyrics.

Death Cab

2008-05-06T12:17:00.001-07:00

So cute.

Misery Business

2008-05-06T11:56:00.000-07:00

Love her voice.

Awesome World

2008-04-28T15:43:00.000-07:00

With only 20 minutes to go before I'm back at work, and not a lot to write aboutbut just wanting to write I come to my blog.I have stories of the weekend of course. When don't I? But I don't want to talk about them so much because I'll want to get into details and my friends probably wouldn't want them on here but let's just say, we all kicked some goals this weekend - province wide.Now, kicking

Rockin Out

2008-04-22T15:47:00.000-07:00

Yeah, feeling WAY better today.It's sunny, it's warm, I'm on a break from work listening to music and contemplating my summer again, but actually making plans this time.Not set in stone yet, but I'm kind of leaning towards Oliver in this moment. I'd still need to find someone to take my room here though so I don't screw my homeboys over. But I pretty much have the job and living space covered.I

I'm so emo I write about feelings

2008-04-22T01:45:00.000-07:00

So I watched Juno tonight and felt sad afterwards, even though it was supposed to be a funny and witty movie.So I had my last smoke of the night, and looked up to the stars and felt sadder.So I wrote in my journal and couldn't think of anything that would make a happy ending to the entry and felt even sadder!So I was like, that's it. I'm going to write an emo song making fun of emos and feel

I am NOT a hooker

2008-04-19T16:45:00.000-07:00

I love my friends to death... but I can say honestly that there are only 3 people on this earth who really know me as well or better than I do.One's my mom, one's my dad, and the other's Colette. I don't even know how we came to know each other so well other than over the course of time.There are a few people who are starting to come close, but not quite. I have lots of secrets that aren't really

Way to Ambitious

2008-04-16T16:21:00.000-07:00

Quickly before I run to work... a 10 minute rant on daydreams and life in this moment:So yesterday I come home and Jordan and his friend Sean (aka: Phat Dawg) are practicing some new rap songs they wrote and put together and I ask Phat Dawg if they have a gig coming up soon, and he's like no girl, we recordin our new album tomorra! I'm like fucking eh, that's sweet, do you think it would be ok if

Last Exit to Surrey

2008-04-15T15:56:00.000-07:00

So this funny picture of Chavez holding Spankie and I like we're handicapped kids having retarded fun on a train ride, is the only picture I have of the 3 of us, and we have just started a band called Last Exit to Surrey, because they think it's funny and it's how you get to their place.Anyways, our friend Joel is going to be in the band too when he moves up but he doesn't know it yet but he's a

2,000 Kilometers Away

2008-04-11T23:11:00.001-07:00

So there's this video I put on facebook, and a few of my best friends from both provinces - BC and MB - start arguing with each other and they don't know each other at all.Somehow, in Manitoba's opinion, it's my fault because I 'talk shit about them'.This isn't the first time I haven't said anything, but my friends break connection with me because they assume I must have. It happened last year

Random Thoughts and Indifference

2008-04-10T17:00:00.000-07:00

So the last four weekends I have partied and adventured way to hard:Weekend #1:After looking forward to a sober girls night at home watching chick flicks, I find myself downtown at The Plaza Club with about 15 - 20 friends including Cole who surprised us from Oliver. We go back to a hotel where we drink for 2 more days straight and I end up in Oliver for supper on Sunday. Weekend ends with green

Tits

2008-03-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

Mike says: (8:15:52 PM)heykira(F) says: (8:16:13 PM)whats up?Mike says: (8:16:35 PM)nothinMike says: (8:16:37 PM)jus woke upMike says: (8:16:38 PM)lolkira(F) says: (8:16:52 PM)me too dammitMike says: (8:16:56 PM)lolkira(F) (8)Don't worry about a thing, cause every little thing going ta be alright(8) says: (8:17:03 PM)now i'm gunna be up all night doing nothingkira(F) says: (8:17:11 PM)maybe ill

March Third

2008-03-03T20:20:00.000-08:00

A year ago today my life started to fall apart.Last March was by far the hardest month of my whole life, and a year ago today I felt so vulnerable and so insecure like I knew my impending March was completely doomed. I was completely 'emo'. Broken, lost, and alone.Today, I gotta say, I feel the exact opposite. I'm about as broke, actually broker haha, but I have the whole world going for me

Happy Valentines Day?

2008-02-14T10:33:00.000-08:00

Saint Valentine (in Latin, Valentinus) is the name of several martyred saints of ancient Rome. Of the Saint Valentine whose feast is on February 14, nothing is known except his name and that he was buried at the Via Flaminia north of Rome on February 14. In the French fourteenth-century manuscript illumination from a Vies des Saints, Saint Valentine, bishop of Terni, oversees the construction of

Good Morning World and SUNSHINE

2008-02-13T07:24:00.000-08:00

The last time I woke up at 7am I had somewhere to be. Work. Ah I miss working days. I'm actually going to start again in the next few days. The last month and a half not working has been the best and hardest choice I've ever made. The worst part of it easily is freaking my roommates out about not making rent, a close second is going without eating and smoking because you run out of cash.The best

I Heart Heath

2008-01-23T14:16:00.000-08:00

this started out as a comment on the busblog but i decided to post it here too. in tony's post, he contemplates the possibility of heath ledger's death being a suicide because he was gay and couldn't tell the world. this is my response:i heart heath. since i was young and i think he was an amazing actor. i was listening to the radio today and they were saying how through filming batman and i

Party Invite

2008-01-23T11:07:00.000-08:00

I am having a party.Actually, I am having three parties!The first one is this Saturday at my house in Burnaby. "The Family Compact" & "DJ STAGGER" headline and freestylin' is welcome.The second one is my birthday, Friday February 1st, in Oliver. We are going to Murphy's pub because I want a chillax but fun night with my closest friends.The third one is also for my birthday, but on Saturday

:)

2008-01-21T16:09:00.001-08:00

I'm so happy I'm me.

Blinded

2008-01-16T09:29:00.000-08:00

Mandy in June on Vancouver Island, in the middle of nowhereWeird how easy it is to forget about how beautiful life can be when you're stuck in what seems to be a never ending moment of negativity. It's hard to remember moments of being truly happy because negativity clouds, just like in weather: it seems to put a fog over all the positve parts of life and it's hard to remember what blue sky and

The Little Blue Pill that could

2008-01-09T00:28:00.000-08:00

It's 12:30? I gotta go to bed soon. Got up at 6:30 to shower and look pretty.Slept until 5pm today. If there was sun, I would've missed it. Whooohooo! The little blue pill buddy gave me to pass out is making me loopy. I've got my handicap on for sure. He says after: You're world will taste like grapefruit bitters for a day.Then: Oh you were drinking?!Me: Yeah I had a couple stella with the guys

Insomniac

2008-01-08T05:55:00.000-08:00

I can't sleep tonight. Or, this morning, the night is kind of gone now...Haven't had one of these in a long time... haven't had one of these ever when I'm under no stress.Ok, well I guess the no stress isn't true, but it's all self induced because I would rather have it than the stress before.I was thinking a few minutes ago while doing donuts in the fresh snow of the Tim Horton's parking lot on

There's no place like home

2008-01-05T02:32:00.000-08:00

Just got back from a week in Oliver. It had it's ups and downs, but mainly ups. I got a lot of thinking done, a lot of that philosophy side of me shone through, which when I'm not open about it my friends take as an emo side, but I'm not sad. I've just been a little more serious than I usually am. It was a vacation I really needed because I could feel depression pulling on me everyday before I

Did she step on your heart with stiletto shoes?

2007-12-28T12:05:00.000-08:00

Ever quit your job randomly because you just can't take the bullshit anymore?Can't take people walking all over you, taking advantage of your best qualities and then trashing them anymore, or tired of letting the corporation brainwash you into their disgusting methods of brainwashing others. All for greed. Who needs that much money that we sell our souls all in an effort to impress?The worst is

Whiskey & Brownies

2007-12-20T22:40:00.000-08:00

Cheers to you ScrotumC!

So Shoot Me

2007-12-07T13:49:00.000-08:00

I applied to the Canadian Forces the other day.I don't even know if they will take me. I haven't heard back from them yet. I want to be accepted before Christmas so I don't have to work through the holidays. That really bothers me. I may miss seeing my Nan and Grandad when they come from Winnipeg to visit me at Christmas because I'm going to be at McDonald's.I've been thinking about joining the

God and Love

2007-12-04T21:02:00.000-08:00

I wrote about something in my journal today that I usually stay away from writing, talking, arguing about, or having anything to do with. Way to controversial and generally I try to stay away from controversy but I like what I wrote even if it is preachy. I would never ever tell anybody what they should or should not believe, and I probably won't ever blog about this again but isn't blogging all

I Heart Alyson

2007-12-03T22:29:00.000-08:00

Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation. To help prevent infection by a computer virus or worm, never accept or open any file or link in an instant message until you verify its authenticity with the sender.Ryan says: (10:21:04 PM)you lost a key too?Ryan says: (10:21:07 PM)ill ask the housekira(F) says: (10:21:32 PM)yeah... it's on a lanyard with um...

Way too hardcore

2007-11-28T05:03:00.000-08:00

It’s funny how I can miss a thing like blogging so often so easily. When I have so much to write about, I never find myself blogging, and when I have fuck all to write about I find myself staring at the screen writing meaningless nonsense.The month of November has been the most close to what life usually is for me since I’ve moved out to Vancouver. Which essentially means instead of having a

WHA???

2007-11-11T19:40:00.000-08:00

So nervous. Interviewing KT Tunstall tomorrow for laist.SO CRAZY NERVOUS (god thats an ugly yet nervous picture of me)Love KT.Love Tony.Wish me luck.

SO HAPPY!!!

2007-11-07T01:36:00.000-08:00

Things that are really happy that nobody should have reason to hate EVER:

Rich Africans

2007-11-06T00:07:00.000-08:00

To the dude that sends me 8 of these a day:"Dear Beloved,Due to the sudden death of my husband General Abacha the former head of state of Nigeria in June 1998, I have been thrown into a state of hopelessness by the present administration.I have lostconfidence with anybody within my country. I got your contacts through personal research, and had to reach you through this medium. I will give you

A Little Discourage

2007-11-02T20:14:00.000-07:00

I've had many visitors the past couple weeks. Well, my roommates and I.Kaylee is here almost all the time now to the point where she is lookingfor a job and a place so she can move out of Chilliwack which is great forher because Chilliwack smells like shit.In fact while Ben and I were driving her home earlier we noticed a yellow fogover everywhere that had a smell. We couldn't believe it, we

Facecrack Application Addict

2007-10-24T13:38:00.001-07:00

LONGEST WEEKEND EVER

2007-10-24T04:08:00.000-07:00

SO I GUESS THE WEEKEND ISN'T OVER YET, ESPECIALLY SINCE I HAVE THE NEXT TWO DAYS OFF AND SCOTTY DREWS JUST CAME DOWN TO SEE US.DAMN IT.THESE DANCE PARTIES IN MY LIVING ROOM AT 4 AM WILL NEVER WEAR ME OUT.

Alcohol Is Amazing

2007-10-23T02:13:00.000-07:00

Alcohol is amazing on many levels.I think personally alcohol is amazing primarily for the things it will allow you to do that you wouldn't do when you're sober. Make out with girls, make out with guys, make out with guys and girls at the same time and yes I am using plural, take out the camera and take 500x the normal amount of pictures you usually would, jump in a van that's just been in an

DRUNK KIRA RANT

2007-10-22T00:05:00.000-07:00

I ACTUALLY DONT HAVE MU CH TO RANT ABOUT BUT I'M ON AN EMPTY STOMACH AND HAD A FEW AND AM FEELING GREAT AND THOUGHT I SHOULD BLOG SINCE THIS BLOG HASN'T HAS MUCH OF THESE YET.HAVE A GOODNIGHT EVERYBODY.LIAM DENNILL SAYS IT'S OFFICIAL.

ANGRY KIRA RANT

2007-10-21T02:05:00.000-07:00

K IT IS 2 AM AND I JUST GOT HOME FROM WORK AND THERE IS A PARTY DOWNSTAIRS AND I AM SO TIRED BECAUSE TODAY I ONLY GOT A TOTAL OF FOUR HOURS IN SLEEP BECAUSE HER DRUNK FRIEND PASSED OUT IN HER BED LAST NIGHT AND I HAVE TO BE BACK AT WORK IN 6 HOURS AND THAT MEANS I'LL MAYBE GET ANOTHER 4 HOURS OF SLEEP IF I CAN SLEEP OVER THE DRUNK FUCKERS DOWNSTAIRS... NOT TO MENTION HER DRUNK FRIENDS THAT ARE ON

Tomorrow

2007-10-18T01:30:00.000-07:00

When I wake up in a few hours, I am going to school.The last time I did that must've been January 14th 2004.Ok, so I'm only going to look at the school, and try to con them into letting me in. Since I was in Grade 12, I told myself I was going to go to college to take music production but not right away. First I took a year off, and then I moved out, and then I took another year off to go

Life not at McDonald's?

2007-10-16T17:16:00.000-07:00

The cats that I'm allergic too had many kittens here are a couple.My lunch.I've worked at McDonald's on and off for 5 years.My parents had been on my ass to get a job for months when I was 17, and I had other jobs beforehand and decided I didn't like work so I wasn't going to get a a job ever. So they got me a McApplication and told me they'd kick me out if I didn't go work.So November 2002 I

A Day Off

2007-10-15T00:05:00.001-07:00

Today I had a day off. I woke up on a couch. Benny was on the couch across from me and Kaylee (above) was on the couch behind me. It was morning, and I had the whole day ahead of me and I wanted adventure. So we hopped the skytrain downtown for bacon, eggs, coffee, oj, rum and coke.Breakfast was amazing. Ricky's is my new favourite.Our business downtown fell through after the lady we were meeting

Harold and Norman

2007-10-11T01:10:00.000-07:00

My friends out here in BC are into making movies. Here's a couple that my roommate Ben and my friend Cole in Oliver did just for shits and giggles.Part Two that we filmed this past weekend. (The girl is my sister Becca)

I love Towlie

2007-10-10T02:30:00.000-07:00

I'm going to watch South Park because when I'm as sick as I am I usually love it even more.I can't even think right now.

Stories to follow

2007-10-06T18:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Cake Day!

2007-10-05T14:59:00.000-07:00

I'm in Oliver for the eighth time in my life, the fourth time this year.Oliver is located in the Okanagan Valley, situated south of Penticton and north of Osooyos.Oliver has this corner store called Eastside Grocery, which sells the best slurpees you will ever have in your lifetime.Oliver is the wine capital of Canada.Oliver is technically a desert, with temperatures in the summer rising above 40

Blog 3

2007-10-03T18:26:00.000-07:00

This is blog number three for me.I originally started blogging when I was 19 and found that there was a 'cooler' diaryland where it was socially acceptable to publicise writings about whatever the fuck you wanted to, without being judged for it.Actually, you would be judged for it but only by other writers or 'bloggers' who were as lame, (or awesome as you depending on how you look at it,) who's

2007-10-02T23:11:00.000-07:00