That's What You Get When You Let Your Heart Win

I feel like a rockstar. If I decide to, in a couple years time, I can be.


In applying for school, I only half believed I might get in.

MORESO, I figured that as long as I could tell myself, 'At least I tried', and then keep copping out for the rest of my life which other than in my decision to move to BC, or travel to Scotland, or when I got into National Youth Band in 2003, or interviewing KT Tunstall and Armin Van Buuren (which I can give credit to Tony) which still remain my only accomplishments in life, copping out is pretty much what I do with everything in life. Making excuses. Blaming other things, bad timing, people.

Blame is an excuse to cover what you've failed at.

And now, I'm in. And I have no idea what to do.

It changes everything. My plans to party the summer away are gone.

I need to come up with $51,000.

As of July 2nd, I'm quitting smoking. For good. I'll be on vacation so I'll be rid of all stress for two weeks and should have no need for cigarettes. I'll go out a few times while I'm there sure, but when I'm back I am coming up with a plan where I don't need to party and can save up cash for the remainder of the summer.

What that plan is, I have no idea but I've got a couple days to figure it out.

I got in.

This changes everything.

In a few years time I'm going to be someone who matters and will be an arms reach from all my wildest dreams. Who ever thought it was possible? I didn't.